It amazes me how our bodies work. Every month, the same deal. First, I turn into a monster and pick up a fight with whomever ends up in my schedule. I have an explosion of emotions and if I am sad it gets even worse and if I am happy, it becomes euphoric (which happens less frequently). It matches my emotions around the time of full moon. Everything is hyper sensitive. Then, it follows by excruciating cramps that in my mind explain why I get bitchy in the first place.
For the past 6 months, I have worked on monitoring this change in my temper to gain some control over it. I was unable to stop it, but I could recognize it’s source and give it space to just be, making my husband aware of what is going on (seeking his compassion and understanding). Finally, after all this time, I won over my symptoms. They were there, but I got to have an upper hand. In fact, my husband asked me the other day: what do you mean you are getting your period when you didn’t have your PMS? All day yesterday, I laid low…I did nothing outward, I just hung in there and observed cramping of my stomach as if to understand the story behind it. Riding the bike exercises I did in the past weeks paid off and cramps were not as strong as before. I could avoid taking a pain killer. I remained pure.
But even though I haven’t exploded in public or even in front of my husband, I know I went through some emotional ups and downs. They came and went. I cried and felt depressed… and after all, I felt deeply in touch with my own body discovering a possible karmic unresolved challenge that has been in my face in the past weeks or so.
As a Reiki Master, I am in tune with myself and the energy flow, yet I know I need an outside source to help me through. So, I am in search of energy healing that can help me through this. Who would’ve thought a cramp can explain so much for us. Looking forward to dissolving barriers to being free and loving.
Help me do this: look in a mirror today and tell yourself: I love you! Do it until the day when these words flow out of your mouth with total ease. Let me know what you discover.